sometimes you feel like a ...

BIG WEENIE? You thought I was going to say nut didn't you? Or maybe not depending on your age.
Today was one of those days. I woke up this a.m . from a dream where I was less than courageous. I guess it was from listening to the news way to much and worrying even more about the future of this world that gave me the pleasant dream of being in the middle east "escorted" by middle eastern men with guns telling me where to go and what to eat and so on. As I'm schmoozing them over with kind words like, "Wow, you guys have beautiful things here. You are so blessed to have such financial abundance from all of this oil. You are dripping in gold and riches." They just smirked at me, like you poor, American idiot. I was a weenie. I didn't dare stand up and speak the truth.
Sorry to vent about such strangely deep topics but when you dream about something and then wake up to that thought it can really get to your whole day.
The blessing side of it all, it fueled a meaningful fire within me. You see, I believe we may only be put on this earth for a little while and in that vapor every second counts for something. Being a weenie doesn't count for anything. That is what makes this adoption so awesome for us. We are acting on something we once talked about doing. And every second of it counts. Every action is a step forward. No more lying around like a big hot dog on a cushy bun waiting for whatever comes next. Maybe you get slathered with junk, maybe you get a big bite taken out of you by something else. Maybe you sit there and rot. No, none of that.
This afternoon, we went to the Dr. for Justin's physical. He is as healthy as a horse. We also got TB tests done. I also gathered much paperwork for our homestudy visit tomorrow. The only thing I can't find is our marriage certificate(eep, pray).
I also called the vet today and Daisy has her c-section scheduled for next Thursday. Lord, send us many bulldog puppies to help financially facilitate this adoption. She is probably more ready than I am to have those lil guys. She is nesting right now plus it's cold out side and she is getting pampered like a princess.
It's been an inspiring day and I'm thankful for it.